Been Sleeping. Time to get that Third Eye Blinking again.

It seems that being open to the idea that life brings balance to the forces in your life gives you a lot to think about. What have I been doing for the last couple years and what is in store for me now? How will relationships continue to change, and where will I find myself. Who will I find myself close to? Blah Blah.

It seems that people my age are confused as shit. Forced to spin our wheels for a while until things become clear. But anxiety and fear of what options we'll have, or won't have, keeps us wondering. There is a feeling that it's too late to start something new, and yet we're reluctant to continue on a path started early in our adult life, whether it was an arbitrary journey or one laid out step by step.

On top of it all I find it very interesting we're trying to either construct or deconstruct ourselves (depending on your own view of the self), figure out what we're made of or what we're capable of. It's hard to do when we're not very clear-minded. I've asked people if they've tried meditation, or some sort of centering exercise, but I confess I haven't given myself to that sort of thing. I'm not sure what excuse I have. I did spend a long time without the pressure of a job to think about these things, but I found myself entertaining the idealist and grand conspirator in me. Life lessons have humbled me just a tad.

Things are switching up all around me and I've been trying to put the brakes on everything admittedly. Mostly because I am a bit weary of things I don't quite get. Looking forward to a day off from EVERYTHING.